Went to a friends wedding yesterday....

Yesterday I went to my friends wedding... That is him with Mamta, after they tied the knot...

I had known Randy, not in person, but over the phone since 2000. We worked together at Embarg, well... I was at Embarq, he was at Network Tallahassee.... I was his service representative... We talked about everything... Politics, his love life, my love life, his pets, my pets... other departments at Sprint (that is who we were then..., not Embarq), and then in 2007 my job was sent to Indiana, and I had to take another position at Embarq (previously known as

Sprint) About 3 months later George and I got married... I had told Randy if he ever got married, I would come to his wedding... sooooo, I kept my word...

So a friend, of 7 years, I met for the first time at his wedding... I also met some other friends, Josh Hillman and Krishna Singh...(they work at Network Tallahassee as well). They were all shocked that I would make the trip, but I figured that a couple of hundred miles was not too far to travel for a friend, and besides, I was happy for him... He was happy, and even though we did speak on the phone anymore, almost everyday... I was still happy for him...

He and Mamta had a beautiful wedding... I was a day long event...It was at the Steinhatchee Resort, in Steinhatchee, Florida. Steinhatchee is on the west coast of Florida, and if you went to Gainesville, and made a left (if you were coming from the south) and then go as far as you can, without driving into the gulf... (which George and I almost did) you would be in Steinhatchee...

At 11:00 was the conventional American ceremony, then at 2:30 was the Indian (I am thinking Hindu) ceremony... In between was lunch, and last was the formal reception...

George and I drove up the night before, and stayed at the Steinhatchee Inn, and went to the wedding from there... The priest for the Indian Ceremony had car trouble and arrive late, about 4 or 5 hours late... but George and I enjoyed the area...visited with people, and had a very enjoyable day...

So... let me tell you about Steinhatchee Florida... first... we have an Obama/Biden bumper sticker on the back of my car, and at one point I had to ask directions at a convenience store... (one of many, right along with Dollar Generals between Ocala and Steinhatchee) I have a confession to make... I was afraid that if I "loitered" or made my presence or car more known... unspeakable things could happen to me... I think we were the 0nly car or better yet Obama/Biden sign, within 200 miles of where we were... Not to say it wasn't a safe area... it was very safe...just not for Obama supporters...if yo know what I mean... It is truly amazing to me that there are places like that in the United States....

The care takers of the Inn or Motel we stayed at, were very funny, and very nice... I didn't get their names, but they were of the same political, or social persuasion as George and I.... It was funny, I truly felt like an alien there, and you had to have a secret hand shake, or talk in code with people so as not to give up your cover... The bumper sticker pretty much blew that cover for us, very quickly... So when they started talking to us openly about "things", boy was I relieved...

Anyway... it was a nice weekend... we left there at 10:30 PM, and were home by 1:30 AM. Very happy to pull into our garage, and crawl into our bed.

I left the wedding wishing Mamta and Randy congratulations, and much happiness, and have another Christmas Card to add to my list... We will let each other know about cool computer games, and hopefully be able to remain friends... It isn't often you find someone you feel comfertable with. I hope he feels the same way....

Hello Again..

Well, it has been a while, but non the less here I am...

I did a search for my name on a German search engine, and it came up with this blog...

Anyway.. thought that was pretty cool, since all the searches I have done on domestic search engines and this never came up, which is odd to me...

Last weekend we drove to NC to surprise Mom for her birthday... She was really surprised...never expected to see George and I

Then Sunday night I twisted my ankle, real bad... ended up spending 4 hours in the hospital in Smithfield NC... It was a pretty amazing thing... My foot swelled up twice it's size, I sat in a wheel chair, but it didn't have a apparatus, so that my leg could be elevated, they never gave me ice for my leg... It wasn't broken, but those two things would have helped tremendously... to make me more comfertable for 4 hours... At the time that I was there I am not sure who else was there, except for a baby... but 4 hours... I was in the minor care part... which makes sense, but I guess that means they don't have to make you comfertable.... All I know is there were alot of people taking information, and directing you... and not one of them was concerned with what they could do to make you more comfertable... Of course they knew when they sent you home... Elevate your leg... (ya think), Ice (ya think) and rest and compression... which they sent me home with my foot in an ace bandage... But maybe alittle Ice applied right away would have helped... or a wheel chair that would have my foot in an elevated position, rather than me having to hold it up in the air...

And... we brought home a new kitty, his name is Lars... Here is his picture...

Isn't he a looker.... tomorrow I will post a picture of our other little one... Annie

It's Friday, Friday!!!

Ok, well it is Friday, a girl at work had a baby, and my weekend will be spent sewing... I have quite a few projects cut and in various stages of completion... so I will get two more out of the way... shouldn't take me more than a day...

Mom is here, we brought her back with us on the 13th... I think she had a good time, except for the spill she took in the garage... she didn't break anything though, a little bruised up...

This weekend we are going to try to pick something up for Melissa's confirmation, have Grandpa's ring sized from the size 6 that I have to the size 11 that my nephew wears.. won't be much of the original ring left, but oh well...

Went to Mr. Pita today for lunch... it was very good...I really like it. Did some research and found out that it is a franchise out of Michigan... I think this is the first one in Florida... The Very Veggie pita is delicious... I hope he makes it, because it really is very good, and has neat options... the Pita Bar, if I had more time, seems like it would be neat to try...

But the best news of all is that it is Friday and I have two days off from this place... Isn't that terrible... wishing my life away... it will get worse before it gets better, you can count on that...

A friend called me and asked if I wanted to car pool to work, she works in a near by building, next door or something... I have to think about it... I like having my car, I don't know...

It is beautiful outside today, and Mom and George should sit outside and enjoy the pleasant weather... I know if I were home... that is where I would be...

Had an appointment with Dr. Mcgee.. and for the 3rd time (that I have tried to see him) I was turned down.... The first time was January 23rd, I had strep, and he didn't have any appointments, so I said, OK, no problem, will go to a Centra Care... ends up I did have Strep throat... The next was the following Friday, January 25th, I woke up with a splitting headache, called to see if I could get in on a last minute, just like they had told me to do two days earlier, was told he was out of town..., suffered with my headache, and did without any medication... Also called the Neurosurgeon, and she had her nurse call me at 3:00, and then never called me back again... Then had an appointment on May 14th, called and asked to get an earlier appointment, so the receptionist offered April 22nd at 3:40, I said ok. but she put my name down on May 22nd. And this is after the Neurosurgeon sent him my medical records that said I had carcinoma, which of course I don't, his transcriptionist typed them incorrectly, however, when Dr. Mcgee was asked if I could be seen, he said, sorry, just don't have the time... sooooo, on the road again for me, looking for a new Dr.

I can't win for losing... and I swear it is because I am a woman. Anyway...have my plans for another doctor, but I have to call them after 6-1 08... and I will, you can be sure... right now my appointment is for 5-22, what is another week or two...

And George, don't get mad because I typed his name... I didn't say anything disparaging... besides, no one but you reads this...

Ok, well, 3.5 hours to go... Making Puttanesca for dinner, without the capers, tuna or anchovies.

Disney Flower Power-Epcot Flower and Garden Show

Yesterday we went to the Epcot Flower and Garden Show... It was pretty neat, and if you were to go any weekend as a Florida Resident... this would be the weekend to go...

We potted a plant, and saw Jay Black... he was pretty good... he is a Republican though..., as were most of the people in the audience... but the show was good even though Disney cancelled the first one for good reason, there was a pretty severe thunder and lightening storm, although the worst of it was while the show was on, there rest was just rain, but it did blow real hard, and the stage got wet...

George and I got to sit in on a demonstration ( as simplistic as it was for me, and boring for George... ) to make a dish garden... They gave us a pot with potting soil and 3 plants, a Dusty Miller, a Creeping Fig, and a Jacobs Coat... They gave us pebbles to put on top to keep the soil down, and little bags to bring the pots home in, it was really quite cute...

Then we went on to eat lunch and then the Jay Black Concert... It was neat, and we waited most of the time to see Jay Black then we actually saw him...

The first concert he say Pretty Woman, and there was a strike

of lightening, and they cancelled the show... that was at 5:45, then the next show was at 7:00, and that one he sang 3 songs, and they said the show was over, because they needed time to set up for the 9:00 show... that was at 7:30... so he sang one more song and everyone left... It was pretty sad, really...But no one faulted Jay Black, he was really good about it...It was Disney.. and they might have had good reason to do it... who knows... probably in their mind...

Anyway.. the Red Sox lost yesterday, and they said it was something about them being tired from traveling... which is probably so...

We are going to Boston for Memorial Day... and Mom is coming down the week after next...we are going up to get her, and we will bring her down and then drive back up with her for Melissa Confirmation... It is going to be a pretty busy summer until middle of July...Alot planned for the next 3 months...

hey I got a comment...

Ok, so once in a blue moon someone comments on my blog.. and it has to be kinda almost negative... Although I bet there was some humor meant... I hope so at least...

The whole Earth Hour was symbolic... sure it would have a big impact if everyone would do it.. but the e-mails were sent before 8:00, and it didn't take any more power for them to be sent or read than some of those dumb chain letters.

Anyway... I am glad someone is reading the blog, other than George or I...

And if you are reading it... I will try to make it more interesting...

Helloooooo!!!!

Hey did you know that today is black out day... yup... learned that from the home page of blogger... we are all asked to turn our lights out from 8:00 to 9:00 tonight... so... if you read this, then do like I will do... spread the word...send out an e-mail...You can send it out like you would send anything out... and we all know we send lots of garbage.... and turn out your lights from 8:00 to 9:00. For those of my friends and family that don't have e-mail... I will call them...

Ok, so what else is new... well we moved from Apopka to Maitland... and I am happier working where I am... but I still hate my job and hate most of the people I work with directly.... Ok, hate is a harsh word... I do hate my job..., but I don't enjoy workining with the people I work with directly...

Hmm.. what else... Oh yea... The Red Sox...we went to Ft. Myers... and guess what... by the time I hit Thononatsassa (spelling?) I realized I forgot the tickets...So I frantically called around and found out that I could get in if we went to the office... so we did, and they reprinted my tickets and we got in... THANK GOD!!!

So the picture is of our good friends Al & Linda Gross at the stadium... We went out to dinner afterwards, and had a nice dinner which Al would not let us pay for... but he did let us put a tank of gas in his car... since they drove to Ft. Myers, and then also took us out to lunch when we got home...

I have another picture to send my cousin... I will post it another day, and I got a picture of Youklis playing first base... it is at a distance... but it is a good picture... and oh yea... the Red Sox beat the Mets that afternoon... Not by much, but they beat them...

It was a great trip, and we have great memories from the trip...

More tomorrow... lots to talk about... and remember... turn your lights off from 8:00 to 9:00... I think it is a great idea.... I plan on sitting outside on the Patio, and lighting the laterns I bought last week at Ikea!!!

One more day in Apopka

Well there is a flurry of activity around me with people packing... I have most of my stuff done... and only the last minute stuff...

I will pack all my pictures tomorrow... (the important stuff), and the last minuted stuff tomorrow afternoon... I am also going to buy some extra alchohol this weekend...

And... this weekend it will be the Indians and the Phillies in Winterhaven, and the Dodgers and Red Sox in Vero... In Vero we are sitting on the Berm.

We also ordered 4 stadium seats for the bleachers this past weekend... and I would really like to get them today or tomorrow......

We are sitting in the bleachers in Winter Haven... and in Ft. Myers on Tuesday...

Anyway... better go... I promise to have pictures this weekend... always makes it more interesting...

Better go my break is up... the jailer is coming to put the shackles back on my ankles...

Another Day in the Salt Mines...

So this morning I had a training class in Altamonte Springs, for LD and of course as would be expected, we didn't have a sign on... Had to use another persons sign on... and of course when I got back to the office, it was a big surprise... and I was asked how I was doing my work? What kind of a stupid question is that... You wonder why I hate my job...

Anyway... they are going to get me one now... in the mean time "How am I going to do my work?"

Well I don't know, and I don't care, and when the issue comes up, I will ask what I am supposed to do.. but you know what... bet ya dollars to donuts it won't come up...

So... on to another more pleasant topic... this weekend, Saturday, we are going to Winter Haven to see the Indian and the Phillies, and Sunday we are going to Vero to see the Dodgers and Red Sox, and then Tuesday, we are leaving early for Ft. Myers to see the Red Sox and the Mets...

So... I have a nice week or two ahead of me... well, it will actually start on Friday at 5:00.... until then I will be torturous... but I will survive...

Next week I have my appointment with the Neurosurgeon on Tuesday... Hopefully I will get home early and will be able to relax...

Anyway... it is supposed to rain today and tomorrow, I think, and be nice all weekend... Hopefully I will be posting pictures of Baseball this weekend...

Oh yea, and we ordered stadium seats on e-bay this weekend, hope they come before Saturday... Hope they come before Tuesday!!!

Ok, going now...

Very Sad Weekend...

This weekend we lost our Putzen... I have mentioned her and posted pictures of her frequently through out my blog... http://heidispot.blogspot.com/2006/05/i-would-like-to-introduce-putzen.html

She went quietly, like she did everything in her life... She asked for little but what she did expect she expected adamantly...

She was tiny, and did not damage anything... but left a very big hole in my heart and our home...

I would love to have her back sitting on my lap...

When I used to come home early with a migraine, she and all my other kids would stay real close... she would lay on my back or my hip, and purr, believe me, I think she was part of the reason my migraines went away...

Mathie, who you have met on this blog, stayed right by herside if George or I were not by her... so... I guess you could say that we stayed real close to her until her heart stopped beating, and our tears started flowing...

Saturday afternoon, when I would go outside and the world kept going, and no one else seemed upset, I found myself resenting the fact that everyone and everything didn't stop or pause to remember her, and how she was.

I am starting to get over that feeling..., starting to, because as I am writing this I have that lump in my throat, and the heavy heart I had all weekend...

Well Putzen, where ever you are, I hope that you found my Dad... because that is the only way I will ever get any peace. There better be a "Rainbow Bridge".. that is all I have to say...

It is Thursday....

You know what.... I am approximately 5 working days closer to retirement than the last time I mentioned it... I can't say it has been painless, but I guess it could have been worse... It could get worse, but I am going to do the best I can to make sure it doesn't...


So.. next week I go to the Galloway Building for training on Tuesday, and Friday is the last day in Apopka, and Monday we are in Maitland.... Will take some time off my commute... so I am happy.... Plus I think I will like working in that building.... this place is plain depressing... truly... I am sure Maitland will have it's moments, but for the most part, this place is full of people who think they are alittle bit better than the next... they also think they are alittle bit closer to royalty than others...

George just e-mailed me to let me know that our friend Leesa had 4 tickets to see the Braves vs the Mets, I think out at Disney... I feel bad for her... 1) they were expensive tickets and 2) she was denied time off

I told George if he wanted to go, he should find someone and go... if not, then he could call Tony... although he will probably not do either... I am working, and can't take off, but that is no reason why he shouldn't go...

Well, lunch I am going to Economy Heath Store, in Apopka...

Other than that... nothing else is new...

Today is Wednesday February 27th

Today is the 27th, and it is hump day... This weekend we are supposed to go see Vantage Point, and vote for our delegate to the national convention... I do want to get out in the court yard too, and refresh my bulbs in the screen porch...

It is supposed to go down to 36 degrees tomorrow night... That is the way it is here in February and March...

Then.... next month, should be a good month... Spring Training, we are going to 3 games within the first 2 weeks of March... 2 Red Sox games and one Phillies game... and... the first Red Sox game on TV will be Friday night... (2-29) The Red Sox are going to Japan on the 21st or something like that, and will not be back (understandably) until the regular season starts...

Then Mom comes, and we go to a regular season game, that is in April... I am going to try to get off early that day, so that we get there nice and early so we can get to our seats easily for Mom.

So hopefully I will get some good pictures to post of players when we go the games. One game we are sitting on the Berm, in Vero at Dodgerland... that should be fun.... Have to look up what we can bring... you know like food...! George has to go look for stadium seats... for the games we will be sitting in the bleachers...

Ok, other than that nothing else is new...

Good Morning?

Well it is around 3 AM, and I can't sleep....

I woke up around 2:30 with another headache, and took Excedrin Migraine this time... even though I was told not to, because the addiction to the caffeine was not a good thing, and now the Aspirin that is in it is not a good thing as well, but the headache was not a good thing either... So you have to weigh out the pros and cons... and since non or the medical experts have decided to help me... or let's say their staffs, well you are kind of left on your own...

But I am hoping that will all change...

Speaking of medical doctors.... let me mention one that I would like to add my opinion of to the Internet...in case anybody out there happens to want to do a search on him....

His name is Dawkins, and he is from Benson, North Carolina... and if anyone is considering going to him, hope that you aren't a senior citizen, or you don't have more than the run of the mill flu or cold... My Mother and Father went to him... thankfully he is now going to a practice that has it's "limit" of Senior Citizens or Medicare patients, so lucky for the ones that haven't gotten in yet are going to see Dr. Dawkins...

The guy will not diagnose anyone with something, unless he can have a hard cold diagnostic test to back him up... and if he doesn't, well the ailment of complaint goes unaddressed..... That isn't to say that he doesn't attempt it... oh yes he does, but if he doesn't get "that" positive diagnostic test, and the patient doesn't want to look further...well, all the better for him... Let's just drop it... Now, I can say, albeit weakly, in his defense... he is in a rural, very conservative area of North Carolina... you know one of those areas that are left ignored by modern medicine, yet sings the praises of having an institution like DUKE UNIVERSITY HOSPITAL at their disposal... but fails to realize that a lot of the residents don't have the means or financial fortitude to get to that hallowed institution, a mere 60 miles away, for treatment... especially if they are elderly, except for the grand old people that have the big Chevy's and some left over riches from the glory days of tobacco.... But I digress, but rest assured, I will get back to that...

Let me give you an example of maybe two or three of his habits.... My Mother was having headaches and pains in her eyes... Now my Mother suffered from migraine headaches a good portion of her life, so she could tell one headache from another....they weren't migraines.... and her eyes definitely were a part of the problem....his suggestion.... he wanted to have her get a biopsy of a blood vessel in her temple... My mother called me rather concerned about this, asked me to call him, and get more details of this procedure... so I did, got the name of it...and looked it up to do more research for her....I believe it was GCA that he was looking to diagnose this time.... I spoke to her, spoke to him, did some research, and well told her not to jump to any conclusions... I did then refer her to an opthamologist who diagnosed, shingles in her eye. Of course first he had to scare her with GCA, and I have to tell you, I spoke to the man, and he wanted her to have this biopsy done... he did not say to, that he wanted to rule out other things first... Well thankfully, because we said no way to the biopsy right now... he had no other choice... The next was when she was diagnosed with an over active thyroid... Did the very thorough and efficient Dr. Robert Dawkins find this condition with a simple blood test... no of course not, it was picked up by an oncologist, who did the prelim nary blood work because of weight loss, (mind you, my Mom was never on Chemotherapy, and her treatment from the Oncologist was not really needed, but he did take on her case, out of Duke University Hospital... Amazingly, he finished his time with Duke and went home....unfortunately rural Eastern North Carolina, in need of good doctors lost another one....But they still have Dr. Dawkins... get my drift...) Again I digress... anyway, the preliminary blood work was sent to Dr. Dawkins who didn't get it... (imagine that!) and he by way his trusty assistant Nina, proceeded to tell my Mom that she was losing weight due to stress in having to deal with my bed ridden Dad, who was suffering from dementia and loss of his left side from stroke. I might also add that Dr. Dawkins was ready at any moment to put my Dad in a nursing home, so that he wasn't such a strain on the family... but I think I went through that back at the beginning of my Blog... In fact, even after they received the lab report stating that Mom did in fact have an over active thyroid... they wanted to do their own blood work first, and made he make an appointment to come in for the blood work...!!! No mind you, my Mom had Rheumatic fever as a child, which can leave that person with a weakened heart, as can an over active thyroid... but, never fear, Nina and Dr. Dawkins are here.... Lest I remind you...there were blood tests done to confirm that she had an over active Thyroid...not to mention the 40 pound weight loss of an elderly woman in her late 70's...the next step was to refer her to an Endocrinologist, which of course she had to travel over 40 miles to go to... because in this great country of ours... people who live in rural areas such as Johnston County North Carolina, do not have access to specialists... the elderly who do not drive, have to travel a minimum of 30-40 miles to see specialists... but after all they have one of the greatest teaching, medical institutions in the world at their disposal. And not to carry on this entry too long... most recently... my sister and I have both noticed that my Mom has aged, physically very fast over the last couple of years... We look at pictures that were taken less than 3 years ago, and she is a completely different person.... She has become rigid, frail, she can't seem to make herself move, she is weak, shuffles, when she does get going, she can't always get herself to stop, and most recently I have noticed tremors... Mind you this is what I have picked up when I get to see her, since she live over 500 miles away. What does the oh so astute Dr. Dawkins tell her... that she needs to do more walking, that if she doesn't use it, she will lose it... (what a diagnosis, sounds like a sneaker or athletic drink commercial... I bet they got that from Robert Dawkins in Benson, North Carolina!!!! What a guy!!!!!) I think she has Parkinson's... now mind you, my Mom is going on 84 years old... So you say, well, she is old, come on...what can they do for her... the treatment is with medicine.... and side effects stink.. yea you are right, and surprisingly Dr. Dawkins didn't jump on this one... see then he could be pushing for admitting her to a nursing home...which I swear he must have a financial interest in...but that is another story, for another day... Remind me to tell you about Britthaven in Smithfield NC. One word... or is it two....HELL HOLE.... Ok, back to Mom... so she gets herself (with our coxing.....) a launch chair..., which she could have insurance reimburse her a substantial amount, maybe not substantial for the likes of Robert Dawkins... after all I am sure he is in a tax bracket my mother couldn't think of...and he probably doesn't have a lien against his house because of his spouse being in the HELL HOLE, I referred to earlier, but a lot of money for my Mom.... So, we ask him for an Rx for the chair, in an attempt to get some reimbursement... what does he give her an Rx for... "fatigue and weakness". This is a doctor, or so that piece of paper on his wall says he is...

So there you have it, and hopefully, if anyone does a search for Robert Dawkins, MD, they will find this.... I can only hope, because, this is the only way I have of letting others know, not to make the same mistake my family did.....

It is Friday

I have to tell you... it is Friday, and the way I feel today, it will be tough to make it to the end of the day...

I pretty much had a headache all night... not a bad one, but a bothersome one none the least... I woke up with it, and it was one of those things where you say... is it worth getting up to take something, and the answer was no, since, I took something before I went to bed.

I am trying to stay away from aspirin products, because from everything I have read, they aren't good for me... I have called the doctor"s" when I have been sick with a headache, only not to get any answer... Oh yes you get a response, but you get ignored when you expect an answer...

This poor guy in Tampa, will get an ear full from me if I see him in the right frame of mind... The problem is... he is a second opnion, so he really doesn't have to tell me anything...the other problem is... if he suggests surgery, and I don't go along with it... he can theoretically throw his hands up and say... I don't have anything else to offer you...

Medicine in the United States can be the best or it can be the absolute worst... When it is reacting to emergencies, start emergencies... they are good, when it comes to care and "treatment" it sucks...

Well anyway, off to a frustrating day at work, and I will try to let it slide... as best I can, but I find myself just getting frustrated and angry... God I wish I could just let all this go, and just exist here...

Anyway... George is taking care of me the best he can... and it would be enough, if I weren't so damn frustrated with this place, and dependent on it...

Example... I had to charge my phone last night... so I said it out loud to try to remind myself so that I would get up and do it.... it takes all I have to get up off the couch after I get home, and finally sit down after eatting dinner, and he is always there to make sure that I don't have to... anyway, back to my story...he got up, plugged in my cell phone, then took it and put it back in my purse when it was charged... How do I know this... when I got here today... I thought I left it at home, and he told me that he did this...

Those are the little things that make you smile... then you snap right back to reality and realize you are sitting in this place and try to get by...

You know... I am just tired...

Another Day... Another 50 cents

Ok, here I am another day, closer to the weekend, vacation, next year, retirement... beyond that I don't want to talk about...

So the latest... since I haven't e-mailed in a while...George is recovering... it has been 10 months since his stroke. He isn't back to work, but does chores for me around the house... This is great although, the stuff that I need to do still is not getting done...

I don't have the energy... not sure what the problem is, other than it is probably a combination of alot of things...

Last year some time, I think it was in October went to the opthamologist, and told her that I was having problems with my eyes...not wanting to stay on one thing, not being able to move slowly or scan... she did a quick test, and said I was having scanning issues... she told me to go to a neurologist, so I mentioned it to my family doctor, he said he didn't see any issues, but he had no problem referring me... on 12-10, I had an appointment with the Neurologist, she said that I should see the Neurosurgeon again... That appointment was set for the end of January... He told me to see another Neurosurgeon, that appointment was set for March 18th...

See, I have a CA, or cavernous Angioma, other wise known as a hemangioma...

I have known about this since 1996, however, it gave me trouble, noticeably in 2005, I think it may have oozed or bled before that, but not with to give me any subjective complaints. In 2005, I woke up very dizzy, double vision, and numbness on the left side of my mouth (gums and tongue)

After George's stroke, I went back to work in August... approximately 1 month later, I started finding that the left side of my mouth was numb again. The dizziness came back not as bad as before, but was worse than it had been previously since I had gotten better...

So the trip on March 18th to Tampa, is to see if this doctor thinks he could do surgery... I can tell you now, that I don't think surgery is a realist option for me right now....

Oh I forgot to mention, I am suppose to have at least 3 of these things... two that seem to be stable, and the other and one they are watching is in my brainstem... Not a good place to have one of these.... Well actually, nowhere in your brain is a good place to have one of these things, but the brainstem is control central for everything, you know the body functions that you can't be trusted to do on your own, like breath...

I have decided that I am going to make this a passion of mine... used to be politics..., now it is this... See, I think this is what killed my Dad.... I think that most Doctors, because these things are not something they like to deal with, will just ignore them, as far as acting proactively... In fact when I tried to ask them about it in 1998, they ignored me, or didn't address it at all...

There is a website, that I look at daily... http://www.angiomaalliance.org/index.html

So if anyone has one of these and feels the same frustration I am, this is an outlet for you...

I am going to hold this doctor to task, the one in Tampa... I am going to ask alot of questions, and then I want too get a feel for how he feels about this stuff....

See what happens is you get blown off by one doctor, and then you are basically get grave looks from other doctors... Your family and co-workers don't want to think about it...so you are pretty much left alone to deal with it...

Well that is fine... I will deal with it however I have to, but it will be dealt with, and I will not let this kind of stuff get me upset or exacerbate my condition... or ignore it because everyone else tends to, or it is not easy to deal with....

So that is my story....