I don't want surgery at this point. I spoke to Dr. Spetzler's office and they said that it will not make things better, could make them a little bit worse. That against, it may never get any worse... or it could get a little bit worse... A lot "it could..."'s involved here.
I know I am not old, but then that is all relative. Tell a person that has issues to deal with on a daily basis, that effect their daily life, that they aren't old... these issues are similar to issues a person much older has to deal with. Then tell a person at 85 who is vibrant, active, driving, doing things they like to do that they are old, and need to stay home and take it easy.
The point is that everyone is different, and need to be addressed individually.
Society wants to lump us all together, and say that this is how you should feel. Regardless what your differences are. Regardless what you have had to endure throughout your life. And at the same time they don't want to give us a hand to help us to be more alike. That takes too much work and effort on the part of the "whole"
I am not really cranky, but at time like this when you feel like you have your back against the wall, and you can't hold up the wall anymore, something has to give... not sure what that is yet...
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Surgery, ugh. Yes, when given those options surgery doesn't seem so rosy, especially if it can make you worse - or just keep you the same, and that's the best case scenario. It's hard to accept. Old is relative. I always recite the common saying "You're only as old as you feel."
We feel differently and there is nothing wrong with that. Some people must freak out for so long before they get a hold of their situation. For some, it might be viewed as unhealthy. What else should one do? Hold it in, swallow their fears and tell themselves to be strong? It's ridiculous. That causes stress which raises blood pressure which can result in a bleed!
Scream! Freak the F out! Get pissed! Because if you don't it will only come out in other ways.
It's okay to be cranky. You can't have joy without sadness, peace without war or love without hate. You feel what you feel, you're allowed. (I know you don't need my permission to feel, but I just wanted to say all that :P )
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