We said goodbye to Mathie. She was truly a special little creature. She was more special to me than a lot of people I know. She had principles, more than most people. She had standards, boy did she have standards. In fact a lot of times I didn't meet up to her standards, and she had no problem letting me know. However, she loved me more than life herself. I have to say I don't think anyone ever loved me or ever will love me as much as she did.
What I find most difficult at a time like this is... I want to call my Mom and tell her that we said goodbye to Mathie, and I can't. Maybe she knows, maybe they are together right now. God it hurts right now. Honestly if they were both looking down on me right now and watching me it would still hurt, but I could look at them and know that I didn't have to worry.
When Mathie was a puppy, I found her. She was less than 4 pounds. We were in Kissimmee, I was at a boyfriends property...I had my big girl Gretchen, and we were walking Daisy and Chrissy (his dogs) one morning. Mathie came out, literally screaming, but she came to me... and we fell in love on the spot. That started a 16+ year love fest. We went everywhere together. We did everything. She trusted me 150% percent, no exaggeration. When I had big decisions to make, she was right there supporting me. When I tell you that she supported me... I meant it.
Well she is gone now. I said goodbye to her yesterday morning. I held her and kissed her and told her that I loved her, and how sorry I was that she had to go.
The last 7 months she couldn't walk very well. But she rode in a little red wagon that we bought for her.
We put her in her wagon, walked her in her wagon to the spot that she could go potty, and then put her back in the wagon. When it was cold.. and there were some cold days, she was wrapped up in Opa's blanket.
She has left a huge whole in my heart. HUGE!!! That I can't help. Mathie planned it that way.
